If I Had Only Known
by
John G. Lee
When I was small and new to the world, I came to know some very special People
Grandpa and Grandma who were like parents but nicer.
If I had only Known
I lost my Grandpa when I was very small but I still can remember a kind and gentle man.
He always had a special sparkle in his eye and a smile on his lips.
He always had an answer to a little boy’s questions.
He always had the time to listen to a little boy’s dreams.
He always had time to help a little boy with difficult tasks.
If I had only Known
As I grew, Grandma’s was always a special place to go.
Whenever I ran to her and gave her a hug and said Grandma, " I love you.."
I saw the special sparkle in her eye and the heard the softness in her voice.
If I had only Known
Grandma always understood things parents didn’t
She would always listen and give some usually good advice to help a young one through the day
She always had some adventure prepared for a little boy or some special treat
Meals were always a dream because they were just what I liked best in the world.
If I had only Known
Even as a teenager, Grandma always understood the troubled times.
She always had time to listen to a young man and was able to give him a special hug to help make things right with the world.
If I had only Known
But all to soon; I lost my Grandmother and there has been ever since an empty place in my heart
Many fine memories linger and these memories set a goal for me.
If I had only Known I became a man and had family of my own.
My parents became Grandparents
And do you know what?
When they came to see the kids, I saw the same sparkle in their eyes.
I heard the same softness in their voices when they spoke to their Grandkids.
I had seen and heard the same things in my Grandma’s and Grandpa’s eyes and voice.
I marveled that even though discipline was lax at Grandpas & Grandmas, my kids were always angels according to Mom and Dad
If I had only known
As I watched my children run to their grandparents with open arms
As I watched them sitting on my parents lap
As I watched them open some little treasure Grandma and Grandpa had brought to them
As I listened to them say " Can I go to Grandma’s and Grandpa’s" this week end
As I listened to my kids happily relate tales of adventures at Grandpa’s
As I watched the special bond of love grow based not on dependency but on respect and expectations
If I had only Known but maybe I had become to suspect
When my parents passed away and traveled to a better place
I saw the empty spot in my children’s heart and knew it was at least as large as mine even though it had been nurtured in a different manner.
I began to understand
Soon my own kids were grown and married
Soon I had Grandkids of my own
Soon I began see the bond of love grow between Grandpaw and Grandmaw and the Grandkids
Soon I saw the light in my Grandkids eyes as they ran to our arms
I know my eyes must sparkle and light up as did my parents and grandparents
Soon I felt my blood sing with joy when a grandkid said "I Love you Grandpaw.
Now I know the special bond of love that grows between a Grand parent and the Grandkids
I know where the sparkle comes from
I know where the special softness in the voice comes from
I know why grandkids have a special place in a grandparents heart
I no longer say "If I had only known" Because Now I Know.